So...Funny things happen to your brain
when you have kids. In fact, I'm pretty sure we're all clinically
“unstable” at one point or another. Seriously. Whether you're
having one of those days where you feel like hiding in a corner and
rocking back and forth in the fetal position or going through the
prolonged effects of “baby fever”, I think we can agree that we
all have fleeting moments of psychosis as parents. My current mental
imbalance as far as parenting goes? Wondering whether to go for baby
#3 or not.
I know, I know. If you've been around
awhile, you might remember in my gender reveal post for Ripley
that I said LOTS of things about being done with babies. And I meant
them...Or at least I thought I did...Or I did at the time. Who knows.
A lot of things happen in a year's time, though, and you sometimes
come to a point where you really have to contemplate things and come
to a solid conclusion. Hear me out...
When Ripley was first born, we were
both pretty adamantly against having any more kids, even though we
had always talked about having 3. For us, the very real prospect of
having THREE GIRLS is @#%$ing frightening! It's still scary as hell
almost 10 months in with Ripley. I already shudder to even ponder the
teenage years with TWO. Yet, we still decided to hold off on John
having a vasectomy. It seemed a little too
final, especially if we changed our minds down the road. (Ha. Funny
in hindsight, right?)
As
Ripley has gotten older, though, she has turned out to be just as
good of a baby as her older sister, amazingly...Which I believe tends
to trick your brain into wanting more. Or at least that's part of the
“problem”. “Well crap, if they're that easy, what's one more?!”
you think. However...
In
hindsight, we wish we would have had our second sooner, just from the
way Myka has acted with her little sister. Not that she's been
terrible, but I feel like things would have been easier for her if
she were younger when we had Ripley. But, like my husband keeps
reminding me, it wasn't for lack of trying. ;)
With
that being said, I felt like I/we had
to make a decision soon. If we have another one, I want them to be
closer in age than Myka and Ripley are. As scary and unappealing as
being pregnant again this soon sounds, Ripley is quickly approaching
her first birthday. Babies take the better part of a year to cook. If
we're going to do this thing, we need to do it, like, now.
Scary.
But,
would having another one really be the end of the world? Short
answer: Probably not. As much as I hate to admit it, yes, we'll
probably have another girl...But we can always hold out hope we might
get a boy this time, right?
For
now, we're taking the “we'll see what happens” approach, if you
get my drift. The only really bad thing about having a third is the
whole “where the hell are we going to put him/her?” situation.
Our house only has two bedroom. Which is fine, because our bedroom is
so big we could easily make it into to smaller rooms if we needed to.
We would like to add on eventually anyways, but wondering where the
heck we're going to get money to do so is a very real concern. It's
the only thing that really worries me. Yes, even more than having
three girls. ;)
Other
than that, though, I've been having more and more fleeting moments
recently where I feel like someone is missing...Then I realize all
four of us are accounted for and feel silly. See? There my brain and
crazy hormones go again trying to trick me. ;)
How
did you know when you were done having kids?
No I done think it is silly at all. Perhaps, it is a calling for you to have another. For me, I know and definitely just having my two is enough. I can't handle it anymore! lol! ;) Thank you so much for linking up with us on #FabFridayPost xxx
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