John's new job obviously has a lot to do with it because we will actually be able to afford for me to stay home with Myka (and any future children, fingers crossed). If for some reason he loses this job or decides to quit, my plans could always change, but for the time being I feel pretty good about what the future holds.
I have worked briefly for several different employers since Myka has been in our lives. All of them have been unsuccessful for one reason or another, whether I couldn't find reliable childcare for her or just plain and simple didn't like the job. I feel like the main reason I have been fighting the whole "stay at home mom" thing is because I feel guilty for not working because quite frankly we were scraping by before when I wasn't. But, like I said, with John's new job I don't feel like fighting it any more.
As I mentioned in another post last month, I'm still not sure how long I plan on staying at my current job. Longer than I thought, but still not very long. I enjoy my job, surprisingly, considering I clean bathrooms, mop, vacuum, etc. for a living currently. I think what I enjoy most, though, are the people. Well, not my fellow co-workers, for the most part, but you know. So, I think it would be in my best interest to volunteer at a retirement home or something of the sort once I do become a stay-at-home-mom again. I'd love to be able to just sit down and actually visit with elderly people.
As I mentioned in another post much earlier this year, I'm starting to think maybe I was meant to be a sahm and homeschool. I did switch majors from psychology to early childhood education when I was still going to college in my late teens/early 20's. I can't help but wonder if that has helped lead me to where I am now, if you catch my drift. I have absolutely NO desire for my children to go to public school. If something comes up and they just absolutely can't stand to be homeschooled and I can't either, then things might change. But until then, I am pretty sure this is the best route of schooling for all of us.
I still have a lingering desire to go back and finish school. I went to college for 2 1/2 years, majored in 3 vastly different areas, and let's not even talk about my "unofficial majors". Needless to say, the main reason I quit was because I didn't want to waste any more money on college when I obviously couldn't decide what I wanted to do for sure "when I grew up". I don't regret it from that perspective since I'm STILL paying off a loan from my first year...And I went to a public 4 year school that wasn't even that expensive.
However, I still feel like I should finish school. I think one of the biggest reasons I feel this way, as irrelevant as it is in the grand scheme of things, is that I almost feel obligated to just because I did so well in school. The only classes I ever received any grade lower than a "B" were Chemistry and Pre-Calculus in high school. (Not a fan of math.) BUT, I might seriously consider going back once all of our kids are either graduated from high school or out of the house because I think I finally know what I would go for and stick with: physical therapy assistant.
I might change my mind by then and be happy with whatever volunteer work and hobbies I'm into by that point, but it's fun to dream, right? It's kind of funny (and irritating, in an ironic way) because becoming a physical therapist assistant was the first thing I really considered going to college for when I was still in high school. If I knew then what I know now, huh?
So, have any of you had any life changing epiphanies? I'd love to hear about them!